The Strength of My Heart | My Portion Forever

Surely God is good to Israel, to those who are pure in heart. But as for me, my feet had almost slipped; I had nearly lost my foothold.

For I envied the arrogant when I saw the prosperity of the wicked. They have no struggles; their bodies are healthy and strong. They are free from the burdens common to man; they are not plagued by human ills. Therefore pride is their necklace; they clothe themselves with violence.

From their callous hearts comes iniquity; the evil conceits of their minds know no limits. They scoff, and speak with malice; in their arrogance they threaten oppression. Their mouths lay claim to heaven, and their tongues take possession of the earth. Therefore their people turn to them and drink up waters in abundance. They say,

"How can God know? Does the Most High have knowledge?"

This is what the wicked are like—always carefree, they increase in wealth.

Surely in vain have I kept my heart pure; in vain have I washed my hands in innocence. All day long I have been plagued; I have been punished every morning. If I had said, "I will speak thus," I would have betrayed your children. When I tried to understand all this, it was oppressive to me.

Till I entered the sanctuary of God; then I understood their final destiny.

Surely you place them on slippery ground; you cast them down to ruin. How suddenly are they destroyed, completely swept away by terrors! As a dream when one awakes, so when you arise, O Lord, you will despise them as fantasies.

When my heart was grieved and my spirit embittered, I was senseless and ignorant; I was a brute beast before you. Yet I am always with you; you hold me by my right hand. You guide me with your counsel,
and afterward you will take me into glory.

Whom have I in heaven but you? And earth has nothing I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail,
but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Those who are far from you will perish; you destroy all who are unfaithful to you.

But as for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign LORD my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds.

Psalm 73

Every Day Has New Beginnings

Tomorrow I will:
Move into my first apartment.
Start my first full-time job.

Goodnight. :)

Compasses

Thank you for the encouragement and motivation to write again, Ellie.
This one's for you.

We always try to hold it in,
Because we don’t know how to let it out.
These are our lives.
We are scared of losing all the time.
And losing ourselves.

We are our own riddles and rhyme,
Trying to sanctify our minds.
We are hollow beings.
Trying to maintain our souls.

We are not lost.
We know our direction.
We have stopped looking at compasses
Because we know the way.
We know the road.
But we choose not to go.
We bury our hands in the pockets of our coats.

We stand and never sit.
We are always ready to go,
But never ready to leave.

You Don't Know Me At All

Hi, my name is: Lydia
Never in my life have I been: Out of the country.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: My brother. And I love it.
High school: Was one of the hardest songs I've ever played in life. I was under the impression that dissonance couldn't make a melody. But instead, dissonance saved the melody.
When I’m nervous: I tend to bite my nails.
The last song I listened to was: "World Spins Madly On" by The Weepies
If I were to get married right now my best man/maid of honor: Rachael.
My hair is: Cooperating. Yes!
When I was 5: I met my best friend.
Last Christmas: I was home. At least at one of them.
I should be: More loving.
By this time next year: I would like to have a plan. Or be content with not having one at all.
I have a hard time understanding: My ever-fickle mind.
You know I like you when: I tell you my sad secrets.
If I won an award, the first person I would tell would be: Chloe Payne. :)
Take my advice: God will always be enough.
The thing I want to buy: Certainty.
If you visited the place I was born: You'd fall in love.
I plan to visit: The west coast and fall in love.
If you spent the night at my house: I would take care of you.
I’d stop my wedding if: I felt like I was making a mistake.
The world could do without: Foolishness.
I’d rather lick the belly of a cockroach than: Suffer heartbreak.
Most recent thing I’ve bought myself: Bubbles.
Most recent thing someone else bought me: Dinner.
My favorite blonde is: Chelsea.
My favorite brunette is: Mom.
My favorite black hair is: A secret. :)
My middle name is: Karstin.
In the morning I: Struggle to be ready.
Last night I was: Quite undeniably sick.
There’s this guy I know who: Has made me forget what life was like without him.
A better name for me would be: Hard to pinpoint.
Tomorrow I am: Going to be better.
Tonight I am: Going to be thankful.
My birthday is: A day that I feel like I don't deserve sometimes.