Someone To Talk To

I need someone to talk to. I need to tell someone that I can't live a single moment without thinking about how it affects the rest of my life, my future.

Without wondering if someone else, somewhere, has ever gone through what I have, or thought what I'm thinking, or dreamt what I'm dreaming, or felt what I'm feeling. I just want someone to know that sometimes, I feel completely misunderstood. Like I've got so much to say, but can never get it out.

I need to tell someone that every moment I experience, every day that goes by, every person I encounter, affects my entire life. Every small thing I see makes me wonder how blind I can really be. And it hurts to realize how ignorant and inexperienced I am. At the same time, it's very eye opening, and life changing. It frequently reminds me what I've forgotten: why I'm living. And I so often get caught up in each moment that hurts, each pain that I feel, each burden I carry, that I forget that I'm not the only one living. I'm NOT the only one.

I need someone to talk to, so that I can explain, that though the lives in this world feel like fragments that are never complete, we all matter. The pain in this world causes me to find new meaning in my life each day. To search for things that I can do to be more than who I feel I am, but to be who I was made to be. Things that allow me to step outside myself.

I need to tell someone that I WANT to change the world, I just don't know where to start. And I can't do it by myself, but I am NOT alone. I am surrounded by LIFE. By lives that long for the same things I do.

I need someone to talk to so that I can tell someone that I can't go through something that changes my life and then just forget it. Experiences cause you to ponder your life and think about who you really are. Who are you?