Opportunities

It seems like the contents of my day went by pretty quickly. Work, homework, and then off to the orientation. So when I finally got home, it was pretty much the first chance I had gotten all day to sit down and just think.

And I guess I was kind of expecting my thoughts to be something along the lines of, "Ouch, my feet hurt (which would come as no surprise)," or "Oh my gosh, I can't believe school starts on Monday." But no.

Thoughts start filling my head, somewhat upsettingly of, but more so bringing to light, an important detail: how selfish and stubborn I can be. And sometimes how resolute I can be against change, which is kind of ironic to me, because I desire to see a change in myself. I desire to see a change in the world. I desire to change the world. But day after day, time and time again, I wake up, and go about my day, me-focused, and obstinate.

Fail.

So, last night, thoughts tumbling, I just sat thinking.
Thinking about HOW, how on earth, could I change it so that I can wake up each morning, EVERY day, and think about who I am, or rather, who I am becoming, and SHOULD be, in God's eyes? And I constantly ask Him to fill me with his Spirit, so that I can wake up each day, and be who he's made me to be.

Now: that rude awakening.

I think everyone comes to a point where they think they've failed, and are positive that they can't go back and fix it. I guess I'm a person who believes, it's never too late to try. It's never too late to apologize. It's never too late to go back and finish something you've started. And it's never too late to try to succeed in something you failed in. Make wrongs right, et cetera.

But as I live each moment, I do think about all the things I can do to avoid looking back, regretting something I've done.

I look at it this way: if I have the opportunity to fail, it also means I have the opportunity to succeed. And there's a choice involved.

You can choose to live like no one else exists, and like you're the only one who's important. That'll be a scary wake-up call when you stop dreaming. Or you can live every day for God, choosing to help, encourage, and commune with his people.

Just DON'T live in the middle. Don't mix it all together. Don't be lukewarm.

I hope I haven't lost you too much. I tend to just write, and write, and write, and write, and write....

I guess, if I have a main point here, it would be this:

Each day, you are given dozens and dozens of opportunites to be bold and reach out. Chances to talk to people you may have never met in your life, chances to help people, chances to share, chances to encourage. Just remember, these are opportunities. What have you got to lose?

Okay. Forgive me. That was really really long.
I'm sorry. I think a lot. And this is just one of the few times I decide to write it down. Although, these things never end up the way I planned to write them in the beginning...

Oh well.
Thanks for reading.

Lyds

Numbers 6:24-26