Just Trying To Understand

This time it doesn't start out "so today I noticed this" or "I woke up this morning and..." or "today I did this." No pictures. Nothing jazzy.
I'm a little sick of that trend.

I know you're all waiting for that sentence. That one that maybe explains the title a little better.
I'm working on it. There's not much point in saying "I'm full of questions." Everyone is, so that doesn't make me any more special.

Is this my life?
I stand sometimes, feeling like a failure, without ever looking around me. With often no reason but to gain the sympathy of others. Who am I to be like that?
I judge every person around me and think that I know their lives and can always feel their pain.
I don't know. and who am I to judge?

Sometimes I feel, like it's me. Just me against the world.
I just stand, stating what I want and need to do, then never moving my feet.
I try to explain and it never comes out right. Question mark.

What am I waiting for?
Why do I think I need a push?
Why do I feel like I need answers from someone?
Why do I think there's something I'm missing that I need before I set out in life?

I'm living in a box, and I'm not jumping out.
I'm looking around, at all the things that I could be outside of this box, but can't understand why I'm not moving my feet. Have I not felt the motivation?

There's a time when you find yourself asking questions you know can't be answered for you, but you have to state them anyway. Story of my life. And I think I already mentioned I'm full of questions.

Seems like I've got a long way to go.
It's an interesting journey, but I'm on quite the ride.
This is my life.And I'm just trying to understand...